Rollercoaster

I can't write this post without the song Love Rollercoaster going through my head (and here it is in case it isn't going through your head yet...  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aBkVV9xxCHE). 

All in all things are going well.  I'm done 12lbs in 2 1/2 weeks.  I'm really proud of how well I'm doing.  It hasn't been awful at all... sure there have been things I've 'denied' myself but it isn't nearly as 'painful' as it has been in the past. 

But then doubt creeps in. If this is going so well do I really want to do the surgery?  Do I really want to alter my body like that FOREVER?  Have I picked the right surgery (there are several bariatric surgeries)?  Could I do it on my own?  Could I keep it off???  ARrgh! 

And then fear... what if I have some of the complications I've read about?  Will I be happy then?  What about my boys?  What if something worse than the 'usual' complications happens?  EEEK!

Rollercoaster.........