Head games

Wrapping my head around this whole thing is difficult.  One minute it's simple 'I'm having it done.  It's what is best for me. I am going to be so much healthier in the end'... the next I'm questioning my decision.... 'But I'm going to trade the risk of diabetes/high blood pressure/etc... for a life of malnutrition and struggling to keep my body nourished?  It's been pretty easy to lose so far... maybe I CAN do it on my own and keep it off long term?'.  Ugh!

 Add to that I've been reading some of the online support groups regarding WLS (weight loss surgery) and seeing a lot of 'negative' chatter.... stomach pains, nausea/vomiting, struggles with the side effects of nutritional deficiencies and more.    I know that these are all possibilities with this surgery but in these groups it was starting to sound like this was an everyday thing and it was now the focus of the lives of these people.  With some help I've realized that they are more minor annoyances and since the support groups are a 'safe place' for them to talk about it they do.  In the end most of the people who have had the surgery will say they would absolutely do it again... even with the little struggles.  There are those who do have major problems and wouldn't choose it again... but you will find that with everything.  

All that said it's really been a good week.  I've been keeping my food log and staying (pretty close) within my calorie range.  The best part... I haven't really been hungry most of the time.  There are times when I am WEAK... but this is different than hunger.  It's REALLY hard to pass up a brownie sitting on the counter... BUT I didn't eat 6 or 7 over a 24hr period.. I had two... two small brownies.  And best of all... I've lost almost 7lbs already! :)  Yay, me!   My strategy right now is to get used to my calorie range... once I've got that under my belt for a few weeks then it will be to make healthier choices within that calorie range (of course I'm making some now... but not really strict).   As for the activity portion... well... that part has been pretty poor this week due to a nasty head cold.  Hard to walk when you can't breathe.  Feeling better though and should be back at it by Sunday! :) 

Thanks for reading and cheering me on! :)