I have to say I'm pretty proud of myself. I am down ALMOST (about 0.5lbs to go!) 20lbs since I started this journey Sept. 6. I've been obsessively using MyFitnessPal to track everything that goes in my mouth and it's totally paying off. I tried on all of last years jeans yesterday ... most of which would NOT have fit this year if I hadn't lost this... and most of them are borderline too big (don't look terrrible but are a bit too comfy so I know they'll look saggy soon) and even had one pair to get rid of! Today I thoroughly enjoyed shopping at Goodwill and buying stuff that was xl/1x instead of 2x and 3x! I even bought one sweater that is just an L... a bit snug now but in a few weeks should look great!  And the best part... I know I'll enjoy it for a few months and then get rid of it because it will be TOO BIG! (thus the goodwill shopping only!)

Lazy Blog

Today I'm going to be lazy and just repost my facebook post here...

 

  I just wanted to update y'all on something. I was a Skeptic (yep, with a capital S) about the whole 'oh, if you don't eat crappy white carbs you won't crave them'. I thought people were lying... either to me or themselves. I gotta say... they really were right!!!!! I have not given up carbs entirely bu...

t I am really limiting them and realized this morning that I don't CRAVE them like I did. Sure, sometimes I think something sounds good once in a while but for example... we ate at Texas Roadhouse last night... I gave M my croutons from my salad and didn't eat ANY of the rolls (had one TINY bite of  M's and it wasn't even that good). I did have half a baked potato but that was it. The other night I made some chocolate chip cookies (don't get all excited on me... just the ready to plop on the cookie sheet kind). I made 4 for him and 2 for me. I ate my 2 cookies (and counted the calories) and I didn't find myself thinking 'hmmm... wonder if M is going to eat all of his?'. So.. for all of you that I raised my eyebrow at... you were right! :)

There ya have it.

Next up... new TOOLS! :P

Today was good.

So today was my second appt. with the docs office.  It was good.  They were pleased that I have lost 8lbs according to their scales (I've lost more since my highest weight but started before seeing them) and thought my food plan in general is going ok.  Still need to work more on getting away from the diet coke...eventually and now need to start making 'better' choices within my calorie range.

  The other discussion was my 'psych eval'.  It 'revealed' that I have some issues with emotional eating.  WOW... really?????  This just strikes me as so funny.  I am pretty sure that most (and I do mean MOST) of us got to be where we are because of some 'emotional eating'.  So.. this means I need to do a few 'counseling sessions'.  Honestly, I'm happy to do it.  I could use someone off whom I can bounce my thoughts about this stuff.  "Why do I notice that sometimes I'm not hungry but I really am craving the TASTE of something...it's a 'mouth hunger' more than a head hunger, and what do I do about that?"  "What will I use to cope when food is no longer an option?" "Is it normal to feel gung-ho about this one day and terrified the next?"   So, I'm happily go along with these but sure hope they won't hold up my surgery date.

  The way it works is until you are close to ready for surgery you just see the dietician and the nurse.  Once you are closer then you are scheduled to see the doc again for a presurg. visit.  Today she said my weight gain is good and if I can get a couple of counseling sessions in before I see them next month then I can see the doc in December with possible early Jan. surg! :) 

Overall I feel really good about this but some days are hard.  I'm just tired and just want to eat something EASY.  Unfortunately EASY is generally chock full of calories... sigh.  But... I move on as I have to.  :)

Today was a good day.

Today was a good day.  Yesterday was tough.  I've decided that the tough days are important though.  They remind me that I DO need this surgery.  They remind me that I can't spend so much of my time focusing on this long term.  They remind me that as life gets busy and I get tired I WILL make bad choices.  So... they are useful.  But they still suck.

 I'm down about 14lbs but the scale isn't moving the last few days.  I know I shouldn't weigh every day but it's still kind of fun right now because it has been going down so fast.  Now that the initial pounds are off and it's slowing down though it's frustrating so I guess I need to pick just a couple of days a week and stick to those. 

But I FEEL better already.  My clothes are looser and I can just 'feel' the loss in a few places.  It feel good! :)

Well.. I think the mini-man is asleep so I'm off for my nightly walk!

:)